i remember..
you rushed down to tampines in a cab cause i was upset.
you holding my hand in the school canteen.
you reassuring me when i saw a rat on the sidewalk.
you catching me when i lost my balance on the bus.
you left a rose with an apologetic drawing in my locker.
you and i crying as we said goodbye.
the sweets you gave me.
the motorola phone that you loved to spin around.
the first time i wore a skirt to meet you.
the place of our first kiss.
the way you always avoided glaring lights.
the specific way you held on to grab poles in the train.
the foods you liked - Long John and 老鼠粉.
the bus rides home when i could lean on your shoulder.
the rings that you gave me.
the magnanimosity of your love.
how encouraging to have each other when deadlines were a chore.
how you drove me home that day when i was extra tired.
how you like to rest your head on my thigh.
how you complain about my noisy tummy.
how you only always make me order meatball oregano at subway.
how you always know when i'm upset.
how your lame actions and words could make me smile.
how peaceful your face looks when you're asleep.
how we interlock fingers during movies.
how we always talked before sleeping.
how we planned to go places together.
how we argued, and how we made up.
how i cried and said harsh words, and then ran back to hug you.
how i could always draw strength from your embrace.
how natural to wander the streets with you.
how your mind seems so transparent to me.
how it felt like we could always have an unspoken understanding.
how the promises didn't come true.
how our tears fell in the end.
i remember so much, but it does me no good. i try to remember only the good things, but all good things came to an end. and with so much to remember, i forgot the most important thing that i must remember. that love is transient. it isn't constant.
no time for emo. time to pia work.